People Can Be So...

...damn rude and inconsiderate that it makes no sense.

I went to Starbucks again today to get my turkey croissant, banana bread, and peach green tea. I walked in and got in line as any normal person would. Some guy just walked from over by the newspaper stand and got in line in front of me. I figured that he was in line before me and just stepped to get a paper so I didn't say anything.

So i'm looking in the case and deciding what I wanted and he's ordering his thimble of coffee and looking at his paper. By this time, there are about 4 people behind me waiting to order. After he orders, what do you think he did? Go ahead and guess. I'll give you a second.

This bastard proceeds to put his newspaper down right on the register counter and start reading it. Mind you that there are 5 people waiting to get to said counter to order their food. Since he had already (somewhat) gotten under my skin, I took action. I picked up my juice out of the cold, wet cooler and sat it right on top of his newspaper. The lady at the register smiled and let out a little giggle, but I was dead serious. He looked at me as though he wanted to say something and I gave him a Tasha Mack look that said "SAY SOMETHING"!

He got his paper, got out of the line and moved over under the "wait here" sign like his rude ass should have.

I would have liked to just know what he thought gave him the privilege to read his damn paper right there in way of other people who were waiting in line. I know he saw us because he looked at us when he jumped line. I should have checked his ass about that.

What the hell is wrong with people that they think that no one else matters but them. I don't get it. I really don't. As means as I can be, I am 99% considerate of how my actions affect other people. Whether it be while driving, in the grocery store, at a restaurant, or wherever, I try to be considerate of others.

Wouldn't the world be a better place if we all thought about how our actions affected others and acted accordingly?

It Takes Just One...

...person to redeem the indiscretions of others. Here's why I say that.

A few weeks ago, I headed to my physician's office for my annual checkup. As I walked into the building, a white woman who was maybe in her 50s saw me heading toward the elevator and tried to hit the "close door" button (she still had her finger on it when I got in). When I finally got into the elevator, she huddle herself in the corner like a frightened woodlands creature. I just looked at her, rolled my eyes and shook my head.

When the elevator stopped, I let her get off first as any Southern gentleman should do. When she stepped out of the elevator, she glanced over her shoulder as if to which way I was headed. I just stood behind her to give her time to get the hell out of my way. She turned left and so did I since that was where my doctor's office is. The entire length of the hallway, she kept glancing over her shoulder behind her and I just kept my distance. I also noticed that there were security cameras around. If this woman claimed that I had done something to her, I would have proof that I didn't. Then finally, out of no where she stopped, backed up against the wall and stayed there until I passed. I just walked on by shaking my head.

When I rounded the corner, she was still standing there against the wall. I stopped just to take a look back around that same corner and she had continued her walk toward my present direction. I continued on to my destination wondering why she was scared of me and wondering how I could have been so intimidating to her. Was she scared of men? I think not, since she was talking to the white man that got off before I got on. Was she scared of Black men? Probably so. But even though I was a little upset, I brushed it off as just another dumb ass white woman.

And this is how I know that God works magic when it needs to be worked.

After my visit, I headed back down the aforementioned hallway back to the elevator and saw that the door was closing. Suddenly the elevator door reopened and there was another white woman in probably in her 70s who was holding the "door open" button. On the short way down to the 1st floor, she asked me how my day was and I replied and and asked her the same. This short little interaction put a smile on my face and let me know that all white women aren't scared of us.

Each time something like this happens, it saddens me a little bit more that this still goes on. It happened again today except this time it was some gay white man grabbing his man purse when I walked toward his direction in Starbucks. It makes me wonder if I look that menacing and intimidating.

Do I need to soften my look and be sure to smile. But then I thought, why in the hell would I change myself to make others feel comfortable? I'm not the one with the problem, they are. And it's up to them to change themselves and their thinking.

I Haven't Been Posting...

... because there hasn't been anything going on in my life. My birthday was non-eventful. I haven't seen the dude i've been dating in 3 weeks because I have been traveling. I haven't had a great deal of fun even though I've been to Puerto Rico 3 times in the last 3 months (and coming back next week).

I just have been really bored and boring lately. I feel like i'm in a social rut and I attribute that mostly to my job. We haven't traveled this much since November of 07. But that's will all be ending in May when our schedule clears up a bit. I need my time off!!!!

1. I broke my little abstinence vow. When people tell you that alcohol will tear down your will power, they aren't lying. Tuscany and I got drunk at a restaurant and I couldn't drive home, so I stayed at his place. Next thing I know, I was tearing that ass up and making him scream (was that too much?).

2. I went kayaking and actually enjoyed it. While waiting to get on the kayak I was literally shaking and damn near in tears. But once I got in the water and started paddling, I was cool. That is until my kayak partner got tired and stopped paddling. I had to do the steering and the paddling to get us back to our starting point. I almost hit his ass up side the head with that oar and throw his ass in the water. But that would have been mean.

3. I haven't worked my part-time job since December. I was really enjoying that damn money and also having something to do on my days off. Damn recession is fucking everyone up. The management cut hours so now only the full-timers get to work. So now when they call me with questions, I don't answer.

4. I saw the stimulus increase on my paycheck!!!!!!!!! It was a whole $8 tax cut. Really??? So AIG, GM, and Chrysler can get billions and I get $8 bucks a week that I will have to pay back when I file my 2009 taxes!!?? Really????????????????????????????????? They would have done better to just give each US adult a few thousand. Where would it have gone? Straight to the fucking banks to be spent paying bills!!!!

5. I tried my best to get rid of Dreads, but that man just won't let go. He is insisting that we have an in-person talk to get out how we really feel about each other. I've agreed to this talk and even talked it over with Tuscany. He's having issues with his ex as well, so he really couldn't protest.

6. I'm finally going on a cruise (sailsation.com) in October and can't wait. It's on Carnival, but the group i'm going with will be Black and Gay. Last year they had about 70 people to go. I'm hoping that they can get more so we can take over the ship.

7. I'm tired of traveling. While i'm in Puerto Rico for the 3rd time, it's no fun when you have to work 10-12 hours a day. The last thing I want to do when I get off it anything that involves exerting energy. People think that it's glamorous to be flying all over, but it's not. After 6.5 years, i'm tired of it. But in this economy, i'm scared to look for another job.

8. I planned a vacation to celebrate my best friend's 30th birthday the first week of June. We planned to go to either Santo Domingo or San Juan. But guess what? My sister-in-law decided to plan a family trip to Orlando the same damn week. I missed the one last year and promised to go this year. But they moved the dates from July to June. Decisions! Decisions! Decisions!!

9. I put my tax refund to good use this year. I paid off some credit cards, got my brakes replaced ($650 fucking dollars), paid car insurance up until May, and paid for my cruise. I wasted a little, but I still have some left!! I love tax refunds!!!

10. That's all the hell I have to say. I'm going to try to post more often. I swear I am.

This Picture...

...made my eyes bug out!!!! It looks like he was giving that final thrust after his orgasm!!!! And the ballholders expression is priceless!!!

I Think I'm Ready...

...to let someone into my romantic space. I'm not 100% sure that i'm ready to do this, but this dude has been pretty persistent in his quest to get my attention and he's finally gotten it. I'll call him Tuscany. I met Tuscany through a mutual friend of ours and thought that it was refreshing to NOT have to meet a guy online. We've been known each other since October and went on one date back then.

When I met Tuscany, it was by passive means. He told a mutual friend of mine that he thought that I was cute and the friend introduced us. At first, I was turned off because I don't like passive dudes. If you want to talk to me, then do it yourself. But since I was 100% single, I decided to just see what would happen. It turns out that I like the dude.


Initially I kind of ruled him out as a dating prospect because he isn't the usual type of dude that I would date. And what I mean by that is that he's kinda soft. And by soft, I don't mean feminine, I just mean soft. He's the kind of dude that would call AAA to change a tire instead of doing it himself because he doesn't know how. He's the type that would call his father or brother over to move a dresser or sofa. He's the type that would run from a bug instead of killing it. I've never liked men that can't do things for themselves and i've always dated guys who could do "manly" things like the ones mentioned above.


I've had my reservations about dating him because I have this issue with being more aggressive or assertive than the man that I date. I'm not saying that i'm more OF a man than him or anything like that. But I have always wanted a dude who was as or more assertive than me. I like a dude that's straight forward and says what's on his mind. And it seems like that's what most dudes want. But gay, Black men like that are in short supply. And even when I do find one, they don't want me for some reason or another. One guy told me that I was too "butch" for him and he wanted a small-framed, feminine dude. Well that isn't me in the least bit.

But as it goes, i'm liking this dude, so i'm giving it a chance. We've agreed to forget all the labels and titles and just "like" each other. And so far it seems to be working.

Is It Strange...

...that tomorrow (March 4th) is my birthday and I don't feel like celebrating? I think I partied enough in Puerto Rico last week. And i'm going again next Tuesday. That's should be celebration enough.