Dreams Deferred

Well, as surely as it was started it has ended. We were enjoying each other, we formed a relationship and then made the decision to move in together. But i'll be damned if the anything ever works our for me.



Two weeks ago, Nelson informed me that he had been been seeing someone else, but had broken it off soon after. Well, I was shocked, but then again I wasn't. I knew that something had been going on about a month after we moved in together. His demeanor towards me changed. Daily phone calls from work stopped. The multiple daily text messages he would send stopped. My text messages to him went unanswered and he would claim that he didn't get them (I knew he was, but he was deleting them, but his phone kept them in a trash folder. When we laid down to sleep, he wouldn't hug me. The only physical affection I got was a kiss before he went to work. So I knew that something was going on.



About 2 weeks before that fateful day when he finally confessed, I sat him down and expressed my concerns and explained my observations. He insulted my intelligence by proclaiming that he hadn't changed and he had been doing the things that he had been doing before. I let it go until the next week.



I was at my part-time job and got a text that he was going out for his birthday that began at midnight. I was a little pissed because I wanted him to be with me when the clock struck midnight so that I could give him his gift and celebrate with him. I let that go, but my mind kept wondering. Well I woke up at 5:45am and he wasn't there. Me being the person that I am started worrying. I called him 7 times in a 3 hour period. Finally I texted one of his friends and asked where he was. The friend said that Nelson had gotten drunk and was staying at his house. My intuition said that was a crock of shit and to this day I believe that it was.



So I get up and head to renew my driver's license and when I got back home, guess who was there. I asked him why he hadn't called me back after 7 missed calls to let me know that he was ok. He looked to the side and said he didn't call because he would see me when he got home. That's when I knew he was lying. I stared at him in shocked. I once again asked him what the problem was between us and cif he was seeing someone else. He once again lied and said there was no problem and that he wasn't seeing anyone else.



Well we went through his birthday weekend as though things were normal and then a week later he confessed when I asked him again. I wasn't giving up until he told me what the problem was.



He told me that he met some guy (he of course wouldn't tell who the person was) and went on a couple dates with him (he says they never had sexand he never brought the guy to the house). He told me that through that dude he realized that I wasn't the person that he wanted to be with and after the second date with dude, realized the same about him. He summed it up by saying that he just didn't want to be in a relationship anymore.



To say that I was crushed would be an understatement. To be cheated on and dumped is some bullshit. I could go on and on, but I just can't right now because i'm starting to cry all over again.



And that about sums it up. Oh, did I forget to mention that we had signed a yearlong lease and are stuck with each other for 9.5 months?