Thursday, January 25, 2007

On My Mind

1. Why do I not have any friends that I can call and just say "lets go..."? It seems that they are either living in another city, broke, no car, or just fucking busy. How does a black gay man find people to hang and chill with? Someone please tell me.

2. If God made us, who made God? This has always been on my mind. It's been on my mind since I can remember that I was able to think. When I am flying somewhere and I look out the plane's window and see the beauty of the clouds and mountains, it strengthens my faith in God. But I always wonder that if God made all of that, who made God.

3. My birthday plans for NYC have been cancelled. Two of the principle people have decided not to go for either work or personal reasons. It just wouldn't be right without them. Why is it that I can't depend on people to go or do things that they have committed to? This trip was planned when we left NYC last year. I think that I may just take a trip to Vegas by my damn self.

4. I do want to go to Miami for Memorial Day Weekend for Sizzle Miami. This will give a reason to get my ass to the gym so that I can have a partial beach body. Even if I don't take my shirt off and frolick around the beach, I want to be able to wear a tight shirt with pride.

5. I am now trying to decide if I want another roommate, keep the same one, or live by mysrlf when this lease is up in May. I don't know what I really want to do. Having a roomie does save me money. Living by myself would increase my monthly expenditures by about $400 a month. I don't have a problem with that, but who the hell doesn't want to save money? As far as the roomie that I have now, he and I will have to talk about that. He is doing much better now that I put his ass is subliminal training. He now pays his bills on time, cleans up, and acts like a grown man. I'm such a good trainer that he doesn't even know that he is in training. They never do!

6. I think that my last post made people think that I was trying to form a relationship with dude (who shall be called Lite-Brite). I now know how to keep people at a distance and keep feelings in check. I don't even consider a relationship until I am fully comfortable with a person. I'm a little too seasoned for that quick relationship ish. In addition, a relationship is not even on my mind.

7. I want a Flat Panel LCD TV. I don't need it, I just want it, so I know that I won't get it.

8. I have some interest for a job in Las Vegas. I have never thought about living there, but the job would require it. As much as I love Atlanta, a $15,000 increase in pay could help me learn to love Las Vegas.

9. I am still pissed that there isn't an H&M in Atlanta. They have the best underwear in the world and I have to wait until I go to Chicago or somewhere to buy them.

10. I don't have anything else on my mind. Well yeah I do. Why the hell do I hae things on my mind that I don't blog about? I have about 6 topics going on that are set as drafts. I need to finish them.



Anonymous Anonymous said...

H&M does have some wicked underwear.
And I feel you on number 2. I just moved to NY and it seems all anyone ever you meet wants to do is have sex. I mean... come on people. Let's hit up a museum, a show, comedy... SOMETHING!!!!

10:50 PM, January 25, 2007  
Anonymous Steve said...

You know, you have it goin on. I really like that you spend time thinking, and blogging, about these things. If number 1 seems to bother you, it seems to me that your behavior as described under number 6 ("I now know how to keep people at a distance and keep feelings in check") might have something to do with it. I throw those same walls up, and it does indeed keep other people at bay, especially those you might lean upon in your own time of need. The question is which is more important, to protect yourself from being hurt again? Or to have other people around you. I've chosen to not be hurt, and your blog sounds as though you have been choosing the same things.

12:50 AM, January 26, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

You can always come to Chicago and hangout with me...but you maybe scared.

LCD TV's are nice, but you get better quality and options with a plasma.

4:15 AM, January 26, 2007  
Blogger Hondo's Boy said...

Well I don't know who made God but God did give someone the creativity to make those underwear at H&M and they are divine. LOL

2:18 PM, January 26, 2007  
Blogger life said...

Thatdude...when are you organizing the Atlanta blogger get together? You keeping saying you don't know anyone up. That could be a good already know us, because of the blog.

11:51 PM, January 27, 2007  
Blogger E said...

Wow...#2 does make one think.

So do you have a job currently in LV that'll net you an extra 15 grand. For that boost, I would definitely consider moving there myself..:-)

And if I shared half the things I think about on my blog, I'd be typing nonstop..*LOL*.

12:59 AM, January 28, 2007  
Blogger TrinaBeingTrina said...

Do the underwear also apply to women because if so I'm running out right now to get a pair?!?!

6:31 AM, January 28, 2007  
Blogger Bougie Black Boy said...

Come on to NYC! ! !

More than welcome.... I'll be in ATL 7th-11th. Lets meet up!

5:53 PM, January 29, 2007  
Blogger That Dude Right There said...

@Steve--I do keep up walls, but it also seems that people don't want to climb those walls. They just expect you to open the gates and let them in. It ain't happening that easily.

@Captain--No Comment.

@Hondo's Boy--I will be sure to pick up at least 5 pair when I get to Chicago on Tuesday.

@Life--I don't want to take on that responsibilty. And something tells me that noone would show up.

@E--It turns out that I won't have to move to Las Vegas because they need someone in the Southeast region.

@Trina--Yes ma'am they do. I haven't checked them out for obvious reasons, but I will do that and report back to you.

@Bougie--What month? Let me know.

1:31 AM, January 30, 2007  
Anonymous Steve said...

Dude: I don't know about you, but I'm tired of carrying that anger around with me, and having those walls up all the time. I'm a little older, maybe. I don't know. But, after so many years at practicing to keep them up (both the walls and the anger) it's really hard, nigh impossible, to let them back down.

I guess your blog resonates for me, but you are a lot deeper and more thoughtful than I ever was at your age. Maybe you'll do better.

1:03 AM, January 31, 2007  
Anonymous kennyking78 said...

Come on out to Vegas!!!!!

6:18 PM, February 06, 2007  

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