Tuesday, February 13, 2007

On My Mind 2/12/07

Now that I am 100% single, I have this overwhelming desire to have sex. I have been like this for the last 6 days. And the strange thing is that me and dude that I was seeing only had sex once *it wasn't good at all cause he kept screaming "it hurts, take it out"* Now it's rare that I do someone, but this made me want to do it even less. But I digress. I don't know if this overwhelming feeling comes from feeling that I can fuck who I want without any guilt or if it's because I am nearing my 30 day threshold. I think that it's the latter because around day 25 of no sex, I usually get like this. As I have said before, I get horny as hell and start shaking. The site of that is even funny to me.

I think that I am gonna try to remain single for a while. I say try because it seems that when I try, a dude that I think is good always appears. The trick is to find out his faults early. For instance, a dude that my roommate knows, tried to holla at me at a party. He didn't know that I know that he and my roommate went on a few dates and I think they had sex. I can't get into that situation. Even though I feel more freedom when I am single, I know that it's not gonna last long. I give it 2 months

My best friend (Beatmug)and another of our friends (Goofy) are having a feud and have not spoken in over a month. The situation, Goofy and Man X went on a date that turned out to be a bad one. Months later, Man X sees Beatmug at Bulldogs in Atlanta during the New Years holiday. He tells Beatmug that he is really attracted to him and wants to take him out on a date. A week later, Beatmug still has not accepted because he wants to talk to Goofy about it. Goofy says that he has no problem with it and Man X and Beatmug go out on a date. Three days later, Goofy tells Beatmug that it's bothering him that he would go out with someone that he used to date. Blah Blah Blah and they haven't talked in a month. I have talked to both of them to try to get them to resolve the issue, but they both want to be stubborn and proud. I am washing my hands of it. The problem is that it's gonna be kinda hard to hang with 2 people who won't even talk to each other.

I think that I am gonna enter into a casual sexual relationship. Even though I am not going to date, I still want to have sex. Having a casual sexual relationship means that I won't be tempted to fuck the first man that comes along. I am not up for any kind of dating and I already have someone in mind that I used to date*it didn't work out for us, but the sex was off the chain*. He and I have talked about it already and he is all for it, but I am not so sure that it's a good idea. One one hand he's someone that I am familiar with, but on the other, there are still emotions involved for the both of us.

I'm much better financially. I was finally able to have a pay check that didn't need to be spent in it's entirety. I only had to pay rent and my cell bill. I was left with a nice little amount. I didn't try to save it because glasses were $250, and car servicing was another $250. But I did get my income tax refund. It all going to debt reduction. I have paid my car insurance for a year and paid off a few small credit card bills. That will cut about $300 from my monthly expenditures. My goal is to be able to not have to use credit cards at all for anything.

I want to go ahead and customize my car with some rims and tint. Since my car is charcoal gray, I want some black or gunmetal rims with a chrome lip. I'm gonna actually budget out for this purchase. That's something that I have never done. If I budget right, I should be able to get them before the summer starts.

I haven't made any plans for my trip to Las Vegas other than to go. I don't really plan on gambling, but I do want to check out either Prince or Toni Braxton while I am there. Anybody know of anything that HAS to be done while one is in Vegas?

For some strange reason, I am starting to enjoy my job. A few months ago, I was soooooo ready to stop traveling. But my schedule isn't that bad. In the month of Januarty, I work a whole 12 days. There will be no more complaining, but that doesn't mean that I will not still be looking!



Anonymous Steve said...

You sound like you need to go to a bathhouse and just fuck yourself silly. Could be very therapeutic if you are into that kind of thing.

12:54 AM, February 14, 2007  
Blogger Ladynay said...

Wow, paying the insurance for the year? That's hot.

I can't get passed the image of you shaking like a crack fiend...sorry! LOL

7:32 AM, February 14, 2007  
Blogger "J" said...

i know how u feel on the shakes. Good sex can make ya go through withdrawl. Yes lawd, I know just how u feel.

9:24 AM, February 14, 2007  
Blogger ReddMann said...

Beatmug gave Goofy a chance to voice his objections... and now he wants to play the jealous role... homos kill me.

they date someone for a few weeks then that person is automatically off limits... and the way the gays date soon there will be no one left out there. I say beatmug enjoy the ride while it lasts!!

10:21 AM, February 14, 2007  
Blogger Cocoa Rican said...

Pa, you know I feel you… I’ve been holdin’ out for a minute and now my self-imposed competitive celibacy is making me into a manic ass! Some days I’m happy, horny, sexy and others I’m liable to rip your head off and spit down your neck… don’t do it to yourself… I presently have a date scheduled for tomorrow night, one for Friday and a possible booty call to straighten shyt out tonight.

As for Goofy and Beatmug the scenario is SADLY commonplace in the gay community. The deal is simple, don’t date, f*ck, flirt-with, etc. with pieces/partners who engaged your social circle previously. It causes a rift between friends and there is too much available booty/d*ck out there to fight over some previously-owned stuff. Truth be told, I don’t want my friends privy to the goods I’m presently partaking of. It’s the same ‘ole drama-filled bullshyt of wanting something you know you shouldn’t have… get over that shyt, grow up and find your very own, never touched by your friends man. So, in short, Beatmug didn’t need to ask Goofy shyt… when Beatmug did, Goofy should have just come out and say, that tired shyt would make me uncomfortable and last, now that it’s out there and Goofy put his tail between his legs and agreed to this nonsense, he needs to man-up and shut-up. Lesson learned on both ends… don’t date your friend’s pieces and say what you f*ckin’ mean.

Whew…I think the snow and cold have me a little aggressive today.

11:42 AM, February 14, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

You guys act worst than women...no wonder gay men can't get nothing "straight."

8:17 PM, February 14, 2007  
Blogger Hondo's Boy said...

I thought everyone knew that you don't date the currents, formers or possibles of your friends...

On another note, go'on head and get you some. Ain't nothing wrong with keeping a maintanence man.

8:59 PM, February 14, 2007  
Anonymous Steve said...

Captain, give me a G D break! Like gay men have the corner on the market for this stuff. No straight man ever found himself in the same situation. Hell no!

You're reading the blog of a gay man. Why? Are you titillated? If so, please take the steps necessary to get over your inner homophobia and down low self hatred.

Dude right there - if you think I'm coming down too heavy, feel free to delete my post. I'm sorry, but I have to get this off my chest. I don't like these kinds of attitudes any more than racism, sexism, etc. This guy has posted a couple times some pretty negative stuff toward you. I don't think you deserve it.

10:16 PM, February 14, 2007  
Blogger That Dude Right There said...

It's aight Steve. I think that he is just a little upset that I didn't want to meet him while I was in Chicago.

I just ignore his contrary little comments.

12:10 AM, February 15, 2007  
Blogger life said...

The shakes...oh lord. Dude, someone put it on you that bad? Don't let your penis do the judging on this casual sex thing. If you feel like it's going to be a mess...most likely, it will. I hate it when mutual friends fall out. You have to figure when to invite to events or go out with, because both of them can't come..it's just too much.

One time for the money getting right! I'm slowly finding things I like about my job too, but I'm definitely still looking.

11:44 AM, February 17, 2007  
Blogger E said...

Heh...total word to reddman's comments.

Do your thing Norris..:-)

I wanted to see Toni when I was in Vegas but didn't get around to it. The one buffet everyone talks about is Bellagio's. It's pretty good but don't sleep on Fremont...they actually have some decent casinos.

9:39 AM, February 19, 2007  
Blogger Blush said...

oy! you had to write about sex today! and my mans far far away!
shame on you ;)

ps. im back.

9:55 PM, February 20, 2007  
Blogger Tim said...

I hear ya on the sexual thing man. Before I found my baby I was like that. Enrique Cruz and me became real good friends. Do what you gotta do man.

Oh and I'll be down your way for Pride this year. You NEED to keep in contact with me so we can meet up and you can show me around yo!

9:05 PM, February 21, 2007  
Blogger That Girl said...

Sex is a good thing....and casual sex can be okay if you both agree to the terms. Yay...for better financial situations...I need to take some notes from you.

10:52 PM, February 26, 2007  

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