Sunday, October 21, 2007

It's All My Doing

Imagine that you are feeling bad about the state of your life. Now imagine realizing that all of your misfortune is a result of your doing. That's what's on my mind right now.

I just can't be happy about my life. But I feel even worse when I realize that everything that has led me to where I am, has been my doing.

I just can't win. I can't even get ahead.

I'm sick of feeling this way, but I swear that I just can't get off the ground.

What the fuck am I supposed to do?

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15 Comments:

Blogger life said...

Norris, give yourself a little break you have to have done a reasonable amount of things right in order for you to be in the position you're in now. It may not be ideal, but definitely better off than a lot of people your age.

The good thing is you're not blaming anyone else for your problems. You know the source of the problem (that's half of the battle). I think the answer is simple. Change your actions and your results will change, but changing your actions are hard. Heck it's down right difficult. No matter how insignificant or significant the task is.

6:48 PM, October 21, 2007  
Blogger WhozHe said...

Don't spend much time on your past mistakes and regrets. There's noting you're "supposed to do" about the past. I agree with Life, if you change your actions your results will change, Take advantage of the opportunity that is today to start a new.

11:16 PM, October 21, 2007  
Blogger Sean Stone said...

I also agree with Life. It's going to hard. Then again, how can you truly appreciate something if you don't work (hard) at attaining it?

I totally feel you though. I called this feeling "Being in the meantime" and I'm currently in it as well.

9:10 AM, October 22, 2007  
Blogger *Madosi said...

yo, you are in a great place in your life right now. you have a choice, either bask in what you are going through or make some major decisions and set some goals. you are what i call a transition in your life right now. the next step is to say, this is where i am and this is where i want to be and then DO THE WORK!

11:02 AM, October 22, 2007  
Blogger Cocoa Rican said...

So what now? If you feel you're responsible for where you are now, then it is logical to assume you would be responsible for a positive change to take you where you want to be. We are in control. Don't give up your power now...you've accepted responsibility for the negative, now take the reigns and ride your way to the positive. It's never too late to do what we really want to do. Best of luck pa.

10:36 PM, October 22, 2007  
Blogger yet another black guy said...

if you're looking at your life, then that means you're soon to do something about improving it. you ain't got to be happy now, just work so that in a day, week, month, year, decade, you can look back and see just how far you've come.

don't believe me, think about where you were 2 years ago.

10:28 AM, October 23, 2007  
Blogger Ladynay said...

Sooo much to catch up on! You broke up with Hollywood a MONTH ago???? Man, it's been a minute!

As far as this goes, it sounds kinda like a mindset phase. It'll pass.

2:45 PM, October 23, 2007  
Blogger jump off JOE said...

"I'm sick of feeling this way, but I swear that I just can't get off the ground. What the fuck am I supposed to do?"

Bro, you are beautiful. You are strong. You are worthy. You are loved. Now, STAND UP!

3:11 PM, October 23, 2007  
Blogger ponoono said...

what is it that you are blaming yourself for?

8:33 PM, October 23, 2007  
Blogger C. Baptiste-Williams said...

just remember it could always be worse

8:50 PM, October 23, 2007  
Blogger Curio said...

So what the fuck are you supposed to do now? Whatever you want to, the choice is yours. And I hope those choices are the right choices for you.

10:44 AM, October 24, 2007  
Blogger Kyon Saucier said...

Aie aie!! So I just saw this today. Now you are like one of the few who actually leaves comments on my blog and you feel this way... Not da bizness.

You can do all you set your mind to. I did and look at what I once was. I've felt as you did but I did something about it. As will you in time. I have faith in you and I knw the Good Lord is always available to hear your cires if no one else will.

You'll be happy again you'be just had some rough months and give yourself a lil credit not all of this was your own doing.

Your wonderful and you're loved so just do what you gotta do... Be blessed...

7:52 PM, October 24, 2007  
Blogger SpecialK261 said...

take a step back and look at thing in propectives...remember yor mistakes and ahve disapline next time...the key to everything is moderation...

Special K

1:38 PM, October 25, 2007  
Blogger coloredgirlswhohaveconsidered said...

"What the fuck am I supposed to do?"...
been where you are at...please pick up this book. The Master Key by Charles F. Haanel.
The minute I read the first chapter I busted out in tears, when I found out how to get out of the cycle I was in.
Google him pull up a couple of the links and see if you don't feel better. Let me know what happens...

6:37 PM, October 26, 2007  
Anonymous Steve said...

Norris, You sound to me as if you are having a bout of depression. You're so quick to analyze and such, and I respect you for that. You have now turned that to internalizing the "blame" for things. There is no blame, man. Shit just works out funny. It's admirable to analyze yourself, but don't let it become a blame game. It's an easy trap to fall into.

Instead of turning on yourself, continue to do as you have in the past and say "How would I like to be in the future?" and "What do I need to do to get going in the right direction?" I bet those are some of the same kinds of questions you asked yourself when you were coming out. I know they were for me.

I respect you so much for your ability to look at a situation, and say "What could I do better?" That's a hard thing for anyone to do. I come to your blog and try to learn to emulate you.

You have done so many things right in your life, and have so many great qualities. You have a good career, and lots of opportunity. Hell, if we lived closer, and if you'd consider dating a white guy, I dare say we'd get along fine. I'm sure there are plenty of guys all around you who feel the same way.

Keep your chin up, and know there are a lot of people out here who respect you.

11:53 PM, October 26, 2007  

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