On My Mind 9/23/07
There hasn't been much going on in my life lately but I need to blog anyway.
1. I got a chance to meet Mr Jones on a recent work trip to Baltimore. We went out to lunch/dinner one day and had a really nice time. Food was not that great, but the company was nice (and cute). I have to say that Baltimore is not what people think it is. When a lot of people think of Baltimore, they think of HBO's, The Wire and have a negative image of the city. Since my first visit 2 years ago, the city has changed quit a bit. And for the better I must add. It's actually on my list of "I could live here" cities.
2. I also had the chance to visit Nassau, Bahamas last week. It was cool to finally leave the United States and get a stamp on my passport. But I wasn't all that impressed with the city of Nassau. I must admit that the water was breath-takingly beautiful, but since I am not a water/beach lover, it really didn't phase me. Plus it rained EVERY DAY that we were there. But one thing that I can give the Bahamas is that the people are extremely nice. Everyone spoke and had a smile on their face. I took a few pictures, but I am not in most of them because most of the times that I went out, I was usually by myself.
3. I'm broke as a joke and I have never been in this financial situation in my life. I actually have less than $200 to my name. When I get paid, I pay all of my bills, but have NOTHING left over. But it's all my own doing.I think that I may do a post on my life's mistakes soon. Maybe tomorrow. On of them I really regret is taking this job a little over a year ago, because I traded more pay for pay security. The other job was pay by day, but I made more. This job is yearly salary and I am seeing that I made about 20% more on the other job. Regrets, Regrets. The pay cut has finally caught up with me, especially since I don't have a roommate. But I am still on the hunt for a better paying job. It will come soon.
4. Speaking of roommates, I actually thought about getting another roommate to cut housing cost. But the two people that were available had either credit problems or didn't make enough money to qualify for the apartment. I took that as a sign from God, that I need to just live alone.
5. Hollywood and I are on cruise control right now. I'm not pressing the issue of commitment anymore because when he's ready, he'll be ready and I think that the issue on that is that I want a husband and he wants a boyfriend. But a this point, I still feel that I am open to meeting someone else if I decide to do that. I have expressed that to him and he SAYS that he has no problem with that. We will see what happens. *Scratch all of this. We just broke up*
6. I have decided that I am going on a cruise for my 30th birthday. I was looking at prices and the one that I want will cost about $1100. The only issues are that the dates available fall either before or after my birthday and I won't be able to pay for it until December. Prices may go up by then. I thought that I would want to go by myself, but that would be boring as hell. Maybe I will invite some friends.
7. I have noticed that during the last few months I haven't been depressed at all. This in spite of me feeling as though my life isn't where I want it to be. My new philosphy is to just say "fuck it" and handle problems when I feel like it.
8. I'm letting my hair grow out for 2months. I have always wanted to have my hair all wild and afro-like (ala John Legend) or twisted, but just never did it. I'll let it grow for 2 months and see what happens. I think that getting the line-up as soon as I get off a trip will keep me sustained and not looking a fool.
9. I'm noticing that my tastes in men are growing once again. I have never been that much attracted to effeminate men or the hood boys, but for some reason I have been finding both groups of men visually appealing. I have always dated dudes close to my level of masculinity and demeanor, but I haven't had the best luck. I guess for that reason, the extremes have started becoming attractive.
10. I don't have a #10.
1. I got a chance to meet Mr Jones on a recent work trip to Baltimore. We went out to lunch/dinner one day and had a really nice time. Food was not that great, but the company was nice (and cute). I have to say that Baltimore is not what people think it is. When a lot of people think of Baltimore, they think of HBO's, The Wire and have a negative image of the city. Since my first visit 2 years ago, the city has changed quit a bit. And for the better I must add. It's actually on my list of "I could live here" cities.
2. I also had the chance to visit Nassau, Bahamas last week. It was cool to finally leave the United States and get a stamp on my passport. But I wasn't all that impressed with the city of Nassau. I must admit that the water was breath-takingly beautiful, but since I am not a water/beach lover, it really didn't phase me. Plus it rained EVERY DAY that we were there. But one thing that I can give the Bahamas is that the people are extremely nice. Everyone spoke and had a smile on their face. I took a few pictures, but I am not in most of them because most of the times that I went out, I was usually by myself.
3. I'm broke as a joke and I have never been in this financial situation in my life. I actually have less than $200 to my name. When I get paid, I pay all of my bills, but have NOTHING left over. But it's all my own doing.I think that I may do a post on my life's mistakes soon. Maybe tomorrow. On of them I really regret is taking this job a little over a year ago, because I traded more pay for pay security. The other job was pay by day, but I made more. This job is yearly salary and I am seeing that I made about 20% more on the other job. Regrets, Regrets. The pay cut has finally caught up with me, especially since I don't have a roommate. But I am still on the hunt for a better paying job. It will come soon.
4. Speaking of roommates, I actually thought about getting another roommate to cut housing cost. But the two people that were available had either credit problems or didn't make enough money to qualify for the apartment. I took that as a sign from God, that I need to just live alone.
5. Hollywood and I are on cruise control right now. I'm not pressing the issue of commitment anymore because when he's ready, he'll be ready and I think that the issue on that is that I want a husband and he wants a boyfriend. But a this point, I still feel that I am open to meeting someone else if I decide to do that. I have expressed that to him and he SAYS that he has no problem with that. We will see what happens. *Scratch all of this. We just broke up*
6. I have decided that I am going on a cruise for my 30th birthday. I was looking at prices and the one that I want will cost about $1100. The only issues are that the dates available fall either before or after my birthday and I won't be able to pay for it until December. Prices may go up by then. I thought that I would want to go by myself, but that would be boring as hell. Maybe I will invite some friends.
7. I have noticed that during the last few months I haven't been depressed at all. This in spite of me feeling as though my life isn't where I want it to be. My new philosphy is to just say "fuck it" and handle problems when I feel like it.
8. I'm letting my hair grow out for 2months. I have always wanted to have my hair all wild and afro-like (ala John Legend) or twisted, but just never did it. I'll let it grow for 2 months and see what happens. I think that getting the line-up as soon as I get off a trip will keep me sustained and not looking a fool.
9. I'm noticing that my tastes in men are growing once again. I have never been that much attracted to effeminate men or the hood boys, but for some reason I have been finding both groups of men visually appealing. I have always dated dudes close to my level of masculinity and demeanor, but I haven't had the best luck. I guess for that reason, the extremes have started becoming attractive.
10. I don't have a #10.
posted by That Dude Right There at
9/23/2007 09:07:00 PM
15 Comments:
You don't have a #10. Why not??? lol. Sorry to hear about you and Hollywood. You will find someone else better suited for you. Stay in the HUNT. Ditch the roommate thing... you been there and done that. Keep looking for that better job, its heading your way. Yes B-more has really grown and it is becoming more noticable to the masses. That was nice of Mr. Jones to give you a tour. Everyone is growing therir hair out. I considered trying it but after a month could not deal with it. May you have better luck.
Wow, wow, sorry, wow, don't and ewww...
Translation: Wow, you've been out there doing your thing and that's great. Wow, you met a fellow blogger...I'm really liking the thought of everyone in the blog family connecting. Sorry, to hear about Hollywood, but it's a good thing if it frees you to find "the one." Ewww...let's not revisit that room mate thing. The next guy to live with you will be "the one." And #10 is, It is well...that's why you haven't been depressed. Enjoy it pa.
hakunamatata!!!
I feel you too. Sometimes its just "whatever" when it comes to life.
Baltimore has changed? I sure do hope so. Last time I was there (6 yrs ago) I hated it. I grew up in MD and lived between MD and DC so i visited both often and didnt like either LOL
if u like what u do then why not rethink your spending in the midst of finding that new gig? That way you wont be down to ya last. Just a lil suggestion. :-)
sorry to hear about you and Hollywood breaking up. at least you both recognized what you were looking for, though that door may not fully closed just yet. and from what i hear, you're MUCH better looking in person, so the gentlemen will come a'callin'.
great news about you not feeling depressed and having a working solution for mounting problems.
don't pass on the femmes, some of them are just too damn pretty!
Trying to find that balance between job security and money is always a challenge.
Don't fall into the roommate trap again!
I'm glad number 5 happen you're better than that.
I'm loving number 7...just let if flow.
I'm all over the place and sometimes I'm just turned off all the way around. I haven't start liking the fem boys though.
I have never been to Baltimore. It was never even on my radar. I have never seen the Wire, although I have heard of it and know what it is about. I most be missing something. Hummmmmmm......Oh, and thanks for the compliment on my other Blog (@home). It made my day. I will be putting up more comics, just been so busy with work and wanted to give you guys only quality stuff. I might just post intermissions until I update my other @home comics. People like you give me the will to keep it up. Thanks.
Baltimore huh...hmmm
Man, Great post.
Love this. Sometimes it wonderful to just let the world know whats on your mind.
Be Blessed.
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Don't do it ur cuter with short hair!
1 - Thanks for the shout out. It's much appreciated.
People will always doubt Baltimore. They envision either 'The Wire' or the Inner Harbor. The 'real' Baltimore is neither of those. It's a city of neighborhoods that give you different vibes from block to block. Any lifestyle can be lead here.
I admit to being slightly yuppieish and I'm living pretty well in Baltimore for about 30% less than I would pay in New York or Washington.
Besides, do you all think I would stick around if it were a dump?
2 - Sorry the weather didn't get better.
3 - Rough patches come and go. Try not to get too down on yourself. Just tighten up your spending. You'll be good in a bit.
4 - I need one too. $1370 aint easy.
5 - It was inevitable and probably best.
6 - Cruises scare me. I've never been on one.
7 - Good. Same here, actually.
8 - You look fine now, but keep us posted with pics.
9 - Good. You never know who could be waiting in the wings. Although I'll admit ultra-fem guys do nothing for me.
Found your blog thru dancehard's "sittin on the fence". Just thought I'd say "hi". Nice blog!
I love how cosmic things can be. Sorry about you and Hollywood. However, if it's truly meant to be, y'all will find a way back to each other.
Me and my bf just learned our landlord and his bf broke up (sometime last week). I'll write a post about it.
I was just telling my bff I want to do a cruise for my 30th (two years from now). I want a small group (about 10 or so). The best time to go is between October and January (it's off-season depending on the destination).
As long as you get linings, you won't look a fool. Much success on "getting yourself together" a little more each day.
= )
Baltimore and Nassua... BLAH
Feeling that financial situation I actually have a blog written about it I just havent posted it yet
N - it sounds to me as though you've come around full circle in some ways. You've grown along the way, and you'll continue to do so as long as you keep thinking critically about the forces that propel you through life. We're all doomed, in some respects, to make the same moves repeatedly until we unlock that secret of what makes us tick. You keep working at it, and you'll get it right one time. Every time you notice that you've grown, your horizons have widened, or that you've reached some personal insight, you elevate yourself a bit more. Wish I could say/do the same. Good work!
I feel you on that whole taste in men comment.
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