The One Thing That's... (Updated)

...Kept me sane since my car accident is my belief that everything that happens is part of God's plan. I let things happen as they happen and I deal with the consequences as they come.

I'll elaborate more later.

Ok. Now it's time to elaborate. But for the first time in my blog i'm not going to tell what happened to send me into a week of depression.

As I stated earlier, I believe that everything that happens to us (as a part of fate) is a part of God's plan. What I mean by that is that (as the old folks used to say) God planned my life for me before I was born. I no longer question why things happen to me when they do happen.

Here's what happened. I was heading home and got on West Peachtree so that I could get onto the Buford Highway ramp so that I could get on Lenox Road to drop a friend off at his house. As I was rounding the first sharp curve, I noticed 2 cars racing up behind me. I decreased my speed as a precaution, but when the first car went past me, he cut in front of me and a damn near hit my car. My first instinct was to hit the brakes, which my mind knew was not the right thing to do on a curve, but my foot had a mind of its own. The next thing I know, I had hit the guardrail, spun around and hit it 2 more times before coming to a complete stop. We immediately jumped out of the car and checked to see the 3 of us were ok. No one was injured. Someone called the police, who was there immediately. Luckily, there was a guy who saw what happened who stopped also and gave his account of the incident to the police.

While I was waiting on the police officer to arrive, I looked at my car and just let out a loud wail. I couldn't believe that I survived without a scratch on my body. All 6 of my airbags deployed and because we all were safely in our seatbelts, the airbags didn't touch us. Needless to say, my car was a total loss.

What spun me into depression was just the thought that each time I start to get a little ahead, something major happens and I feel like I have been pulled back. After the accident, I found out that I actually didn't have GAP insurance on my car. I bought GAP insurance when I initially purchased the car, but then I refinanced it immediately after I bought it. It was my belief that I had included the insurance when I refinanced the car, but I hadn't. The insurance company decided to pay for the cash value of my car which was about $6000 less than what I owed. I was floored and depressed in the fact that I had to pay for a car that I no longer would have to drive.

Luckily I was off the following week and didn't have to go anywhere. All I did was lie around the house and sulk for 5 days. I just felt like giving up on life. But then something hit me. "How exactly does one give up on life?" I had no clue!

And then I remembered that God lets things happen for a reason. I had to remind myself of that. Once I did, I started to feel better. I also realized that I was fortunate enough to have another vehicle to drive. I was fortunate enough to have the money to cover my deductible in case they decided to try to fix my car. I was fortunate enough to STILL BE ALIVE!!!!

Things started to look up last week when I got a check in the mail from my old company. If you all remember or not, they went bankrupt back in April and terminated us with no notice. Then when I found out that my GAP insurance wasn't in effect, the customer service representative told me that I was due a refund since that contract was replaced.

I used those to checks as a down payment on my new car. A 2005 Infiniti G35x!!!! I love it. I got it for about $4000 less than retail. That came in handy because I was able to add that $6000 in negative equity to my new loan. So I don't have to pay for (in a way) the old car and for a new car.

I believe that things like this happen to remind you that God is still there for you. And I'll leave it at that.